Purpose: the reason for which something is done or created or for which something exists. As a verb it is described as to have as one’s intention or objective. I’m not trying to give you an english lesson, but I do wonder who thinks about this word. Who out there is living with purpose? Do you have a sense of what your intentions are? Every day? Or do you occasionally become aware of your purpose? Maybe you find yourself questioning if you have a purpose at all. Either way, whatever your intentions are, you are creating it.
You see, whatever you are intentionally or unintentionally doing, your actions are creating a reaction. If you don’t believe you have a purpose, you are probably living a life in reaction to your environment. At least that’s what I was doing. Just living day by day, going through the motions of what I thought I needed to get done. I didn’t really have any plans. Just to survive. But, now I live differently. Now I strive to create my life. I want to live a life I’m proud of. I want to experience life. I want to exist with purpose. And if I want it……well…. no one is going to give it to me. It’s up to me to decide what I want. What does any of that look like? And what steps do I need to take to get there.
I started small. I questioned every little thing I did. I asked myself why I was doing it, and if it made sense. I started to realize how much of what I said, did not align up to what I was wanting. My actions definitely were not aligning to what I hoped for. I was on autopilot doing my best to fit in, in every situation. I easily could get along well with everyone. I could easily put a smile on everyone’s face I encountered. I knew how to read them and adapt to them. But, I was numb. I was not living for me. I got lost somewhere along my path. Just reacting to every day as it came with no clear goals in mind. How did I think I would accomplish anything if I didn’t start working towards it? I don’t know. It seems so simple and logical. But, I was living a pattern. A pattern of familiar behavior. Familiar comforts, but no change.
It’s been a long journey for me, and it continues. But, now I’m living with the intention, of living with purpose. I ask myself daily what I want to experience. What do I hope for? What am I working towards? Who am I honoring by existing today? I don’t have all the answers. I don’t want them. But, what I do want is to live a life of wonder. I want to be inspired. I want to see hope, I want to see love. I want to see peace. I want to see families. Real ones that love each other and support each other. I want friendly faces, and real connections. I want life. I want it all. Every experience, the good and the bad. Because I know to truly love is to grieve someday. Nothing is forever. Energy is constantly flowing and our time is fleeting. That is what makes it so precious. If we lived forever, our stories could never become legends.
I just want to live whatever my purpose is. So, I’m trusting the universe to guide me as I let go. Whatever it has in store for me, I’m here for it all. I’m choosing life. I’m choosing to be resilient. I’m choosing to not crumble under the weight of my hurt. I’m choosing to use it as wisdom to help others. I’m choosing to embrace every part of me that I was once ashamed of. Because I know, in each aspect of who I am, lies a little girl with nothing but hope in her eyes. If I could go back and save me, I don’t think I would. Because she wouldn’t be able to experience such gratitude for life now. And I have that. I have that freedom I so desperately wanted. And I’m not going to let that knowledge go to waste. I’ll make it my fuel. So, I’m choosing to participate. I’m choosing to focus. I’m choosing to live out my part. My purpose. May it be beautiful and worth telling. I pray for you to find your purpose. Your will to participate to your fullest potential. Why not? We’re here now. We’re experiencing life every breath we take. May you find your focus. May you find your fuel. Either way, always remember you are a participant in your life. So be an active participant.
With Intention and Hope, The Awakened Bruja
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